"Love in that condition in which the happiness of another is essential to your own" -Robert Heinlein

"I love you for all that you are, all that you have been and all you're yet to be."

"Loved you yesterday, love you still, always have, always will."

"I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity and her flaming self respect. And its these things I'd believe in, even if the whole world indulge in wild suspicions that she wasn't all she should be. I love her and it is the beginning of everything." -F. Scott Fitzgerald

"All you need is love."

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midland.

i've been content and happy with where i'm at right now. :)

my job as a barista at starbucks has been amazing. of course, i was skeptical and hesitant at first in the beginning. i can be a bit awkward at first when you meet me, but once i open up to you, i'm loud and out there. anyways. it's hard meeting new people and trying to make friends in a new environment and i was pretty worried at first when i began at starbucks. however, it was easier than i thought to become friends and comfortable with the people i work with. there are a couple of people that are going away to college within the next week that i'm pretty sad about. we are getting new people so hopefully, they'll be just as awesome as the people leaving.

my other job as a freelance writer at utpb has been okay. i finished up the first three stories i was assigned: previews for the upcoming season of the men and women's soccer, cross country and volleyball teams. it's really easy money for doing these stories on your own time so i'm enjoying it a lot. i still get a bit nervous talking to my sources and interviewing them, but i guess that's just something i'll have to get over.

i caught up with an old friend from high school tonight. she has the cutest baby boy ever and it feels weird, not in a bad way, but a good way. i haven't talked to her in two years and she actually got in contact with me through instagram. it was nice seeing her and playing with her adorable little boy. hopefully, we don't lose contact like we did the last couple of years.

besides work and socializing, (i do actually need to start studying for the gre), i've been spending tons of time with my little brother. since he's a couple of years older than what he was before i moved to san marcos, he's grown up a lot. he's going to be 12 on october 2nd, and it just blows my mind that he's about to be taller than me. (he's up to my chin probably). we've been getting snow cones from the little snow cone stand near our house at least two or three times a week. we've been playing tons of video games including left 4 dead and super mario bros. wii. we also spent the morning/afternoon together the other day as he helped me run a few errands around town and in odessa. we ate wing stop for lunch and it was his first time and i'm sure he's obsessed with the wings from there now. he keeps talking to our dad about going to wing stop because he wants bbq wings, haha. :P

 

boyfriend.

joshua,
the past four and a half years have been the best years of my life. you've taught me a great deal about everything including myself. of course, we have our ups and downs like any other couple and our wonderful and bad times. the past year has been one of our biggest years ever. i've changed. you've changed. but we've definitely changed and grew up together... as individuals and as a couple. these past  years have flew by like no other. it just felt like yesterday we were walking down the halls of lee high. and now, we're graduating college. (well, i graduated already. ;P) you've done so much for me and i can't thank you enough for everything and the smallest things you do. you're my better half, my rock, my world, my everything. i remember seeing you in junior high and having the biggest crush on you and thinking, "there's no way we would ever get together." i remember the first time we had a conversation outside of school - the starbucks next to the high school when you gave me my christmas present. :) i remember the first time you called me "babe" and i got so many butterflies in my stomach. i remember the first time we held hands and i remember our first kiss. you've given me so much joshua and you've done so much for me. i can't thank you enough and words can't tell you how much i appreciate you and how blessed how i am to have you in my life and for me to call you mine. you're not only my boyfriend, you're my best friend. i love you and miss you very much.

love always,
bae

p.s - fifteen more days till' i get to see your handsome face. :)

home sweet home.

this summer has definitely went by fast. faster than i thought. it just felt like yesterday ariel and i were talking about summer plans in late may. and now it's the beginning of august.

it's been a few days since i moved home and since moving home, things have been really emotional, yet less stressful. it's been emotional because of all the emotions and feelings i have towards san marcos and all the friends there. but being at home has definitely had its ups. for example, i don't have to worry about spending money on groceries or the electricity bill. and on top of that, i get my mom's cooking everyday.

i really miss san marcos though. i miss the friends i made there, especially my main girls, ariel and meagan. i miss going out to the bars every weekend. i miss going to work at bed, bath & beyond... as much as it was a pain in the butt working there, it was nice having great co-workers. i miss my boyfriend especially. i miss waking up to his handsome face in the morning, cooking dinner with him and giving him little kisses on the cheek and forehead. i miss the whole college atmosphere of san marcos. i definitely miss running around san marcos and the river. thank you san marcos for the wonderful college experience. it's definitely made a huge impact on my life.

it's going to be a long five months before josh moves back home. until then... work and study. i'm pretty sure an advantage of being home is not going out to the bars and saving money and on top of that, losing weight. i want to try and spend a lot more time with my little brother as well before moving again. he's turning 12 in october and i think this is definitely the perfect time to spend a lot of time together and build that close sibling relationship. another thing i really wanna do while i'm here at home is learn my mom's cooking. being in san marcos, i've always baked chicken and fish and had macaroni, mashed potatoes, etc. i'm sure josh would appreciate me learning how to cook like my mom as well. ;)

i haven't been at home even a week and i already landed a freelance writing job at the university 20 minutes away from midland. i'm also in touch with the lifestyles' editor at the midland reporter telegram about a position there. it just so happens that i went to elementary school all the way up to high school with the lifestyles' editor's son and she remembers me. i really hope things work out while i'm here in midland... especially career-wise and financially.

people.

a few things i wish i understood more about people:
- why people are so selfish.
- why people do certain things. are they done intentionally or unintentionally?
- how people can be so bipolar towards others.
- how someone could be so spoiled and not even realize it.
- why people don't say something sooner instead of later.

people are ridiculous and i know i'll never understand why decisions are made. but for now, the majority of people that i know need to quit being so selfish and quit doing things that's completely unnecessary and stupid. the world doesn't revolve around one person and if you think it does, you have a lot coming for you.

life as of lately.

it sure has been a while since i've updated... not that i've been super busy or anything, but i've just been simply enjoying the summer and my last few weeks in san marcos before i move back to midland. :)

since my last update... not much has been happening except:
- i finally got my iPhone 4s from my parents for my last graduation gift. i've been on it so much lately... it has everything i need. all of my apps, music, photos, etc.
- as usual, i've been hitting the bars every weekend with my main girl, ariel. tons of funs and we've been to bar one41 so much that the bartenders pretty much know who we are!
- took a weekend trip to dallas to spend time with my brother and sister-in-law. it was nice to get out of town and take a mini vacation. there was tons of eating out, pool time, alcohol and going out.
- finished up my college job at the triple b; (bed, bath and beyond). the managers and my co-workers surprised me with a ice cream cake along with a few gifts that included a hello kitty throw and a hello kitty rice cooker.
- i threw josh's surprise early birthday dinner last night at plucker's. the surprise was mainly a lot of our friends being there and then, a surprise avenger's birthday cake with trick candles. it was entertaining watching him blow out the candles then watching them re-light, haha.

 

 

Happy List.

Took this idea of a happy list from my amazing and beautiful cousin, Cynthia. :)

1) Late nights with my amazing friends. We've been hitting the bars a lot and not to mention spending tons of money, but it's all completely worth it since it's my last summer here in San Marcos.
2) Spending time with my boy. <3 We don't get much time together since he's in summer school. It seems like we have opposite schedules so when we do get time to go to the mall or just cuddle, it's amazing.
3) Iron and Wine and Pandora. I have been on my iPod like crazy lately listening to music. I prefer music over television any day.
4) Writing. The whole process of getting assigned a story, contacting sources, interviewing, writing a story and then seeing your name printed in the papers next to your story is awesome.
5) Running. Although I've been averaging one run a week (ha, I know. It's been super hot!), it's nice to get out there and get the stress reliever out of the way.
6) Breezy weather. Even though it's been super hot, I love the cloudy days and the breeze rolling by.
7) NBA Playoffs. Go OKC! Thunder Up!
8) My Macbook<3 It is so much better than my Dell laptop. It has everything I need on it. A hello kitty decal thanks to babe and all my Adobe programs thanks to my boy, Brando.
9) My hair! It's finally getting longer and I'm getting happy with the length of it.
10) In two days, my "no drinking soda" for three months will be marked! :)